I’m pretty good at writing about silly things like omelets
and trips to the market, but when it come to things that matter I feel a wee bit paralyzed.
Bare with me.
It’s been a little over a week since the tragedy in Libya
took place and violent protests at US Embassy started spreading around the
Middle East and North Africa.
I was swimming alone in the Consul General’s pool when I
read that the consulate in Benghazi had been attacked and one person was
suspected dead. Between every
three or four laps I pulled myself from the pool to check my blackberry. It seemed the news was worse each time
I checked. About half way
through my swim I got a text message from Max, no details, that simply said
“I’ll be home around 2:30”.
When we were in Jerusalem trouble was much easier to spot than it was last week. We experienced several “Days of Rage”, tenuous check-point crossings and bus rides through Mea Sherim lined with burning garbage cans. We received frequent warning texts from the University and the city was tense on a regular basis. Everybody felt it on busses and in the streets – no one was exempt. In Casablanca last week, the sun was shining, the streets were calm and the pool was the perfect temperature. It’s unnerving to be singled out.
When we were in Jerusalem trouble was much easier to spot than it was last week. We experienced several “Days of Rage”, tenuous check-point crossings and bus rides through Mea Sherim lined with burning garbage cans. We received frequent warning texts from the University and the city was tense on a regular basis. Everybody felt it on busses and in the streets – no one was exempt. In Casablanca last week, the sun was shining, the streets were calm and the pool was the perfect temperature. It’s unnerving to be singled out.
The protests in Casablanca were not very large in scale or
violence compared to other countries in the region. We were incredibly supported by our local police and since
Friday things have remained fairly calm around here. All the same I spent the better part of last week reviewing
emergency procedures and updating our go bags. And thinking about and checking in with friends. We NEA-ers are a small bunch and my
heart is with everyone who has been a victim in these attacks. Not just those who have lost loved
ones, for which I can’t express enough sympathy and support, but for all those
who have lost their sense of peace and safety as well. Hang in there.
The first afternoon Max spent at home, the day after the
attacks when people started to realize how big this thing was getting, I began
a distance Arabic course I had signed up for in June. You know, so we can go to more Arabic speaking
countries. I have all sorts of
statements of noble commitment to the Middle East running around my head, mixed
with a little bit of fear, confusion, sadness and anger at the lives that were
lost. I’m not sure what to do with
it all, but I imagine a good chunk of the Foreign Service career is spent trying to work through
stuff like this – on a global scale as well as on a personal.